The harsh conditions made me aware of who and what I was. I do not crave love, I crave to be who I am and what I am. My pleasure is the comfort and pleasure of others. I want to be good, do good. Every one has his own way to feel happiness and comfort, being them self in good harmony with their feelings and emotions. Being subjected as slave and servant, treated like a dog and object is where my true self is. I do not play a game, I do not use the scene to have sex, I care less, I do not pose an act; in my heart I am who I am: a filthy dog.